I ran out of spoons.*
When I didn’t have the bandwidth yesterday to draft the second part of how editors approach poetry versus prose (here’s Part One), I set my alarm an hour early to give myself the time to write this morning. Only to wake up to all the clocks — except the one on the wall opposite my oversized lounge chair in my living room — having sprung forward because of daylight saving time. (The one day of the year I wish I lived in Arizona.)
Though my muddled mind puzzled at the discrepancy between the wall clock and the time on my phone, I continued to cuddle with kitty while lounging as my eyelids drifted down down down…
Here I am without the energy to devote to writing and editing and formatting a proper 100 Rejections Club newsletter this week. Instead of listening to my Inner Critic or leaning into Imposter Syndrome, I’ve decided to pause, reflect, and reframe.
*Back in 2003, Christine Miserandino blogged about how she explained to one of her best friends what it is like to live with chronic illness, which she named The Spoon Theory.
Sometimes I have only a teeny tiny bit of energy — maybe 4 spoons — to get everything on the to-do list done. Sometimes my writing is the 5th item on the list and doesn’t happen. (Or in a slapdash way like today.)
And that’s okay. ⬅️ My reframing to embrace not getting it done. Because I’m a spoonie. Are you? Do tell.
Winter Speedrun Schedule
Create: February 2nd–15th
Revise: February 16th–March 1st
Submit: March 2nd–15th CONTINUE THIS WEEK
Embrace the Rejection: March 16th–31st
Next time: How Editors Approach Poetry Versus Prose, Part Two
Thank you for this. I hammer myself on the head constantly for not writing until last minute. Some days it would be better for me to reframe and give myself grace to actually rest and reset instead of forging on..
I’m thinking of the card game ‘spoons’ where people grab a spoon on the sly and you look down, the spoons are all gone, and that’s your game for the present. Out.